As we are approaching your 50th birthday the memories of our life together keep flashing in my head. Life with you not in it is so hard and sad. I have no idea how we are all going to cope around your birthday with you not here. I hope you can see us celebrating it for you as best we can. I miss and love you my brother so so much. The pain is excruciating with not being able to see you and cuddle you. xxxxxxxx